I am a Christian.

That comment likely brings different thoughts and reactions for different people. Some are turned away. Some are curious. Some are happy. Today I'm not sure.

I love the Lord. I believe in Jesus Christ as my personal Lord and Saviour. I try to obey His laws and commandments.

Sometimes I fail.

But sometimes I do ok. And sometimes I wish it was just Him and me.

Whoever came up with the idea of having "church" on Sunday morning, in all it's organized pomp and glory? Is it really worth it? I mean, can't I still have a relationship with the Lord without other people? It wasn't those other people that got me saved!

I'm on a new praise and worship team at church. In fact I'm leading it. But yesterday, we ran into a brick wall. The people say they want to follow the Lord, they want change. But when it comes down to it, when it's time to step over the borders of our comfort zones of traditions, we lay down on the ground and start kicking and screaming like some 2-yr-old in a tantrum, "I don't want to go!!!"

So for now, our team is off stage again. We will not be getting up there on Sunday morning as planned - only our third Sunday. Instead, we will still be meeting every Thursday morning as usual, keeping ourselves practiced up, and praying together. We're looking for the vocal support of the majority, and until we get that, I as leader feel we will not step back up on that stage.

You can't drag people into the presence of God. They have to want to be led.

So we'll wait.