Ever wonder....

...what life would be like if more of us had good parents. I mean, like if my dad had parents that were focused on the will of good, and righteous living, and their parents had done the same thing for them. Don't you think we'd all be a lot more productive when it comes to the kingdom. I'm determined that's the kind of mother I want to be, regardless of the lack of that leadership in my life. I want all of my children, however many that may be, to have a heart for God, and to follow hard after Him forever. Then all the other details of this life here on earth will surely fall into place properly. They'll probably even have many less years of struggle trying to capture their true identity. God, please help me to be that kind of mother.

Other than that, not much to say. Life goes on. I'm gearing up for homeschooling in just a few weeks. I'm getting quite excited about it. Much more focused and determined than last year. Things are becoming clearer in my view, and I know that I can do this, and not just be in survival mode. I have recently come across the website of a very unique family in the US, and they are so encouraging and inspiring. I am also initiating my own support network, and am planning my days and weeks, so I know what I'm looking forward to. I think Cole will really enjoy this year.

I do feel that I am growing into a greater sense of who I am. It is definitely being challenged - my identity - but I am also becoming more aware of the areas that are perhaps subtle attacks on me being me. Once you recognize those things, then you are able to cut them off. Thank you God, for freedom.

Life is good.