I Forgot

...to let any readers know I moved. A long time ago. To Wordpress.com. Then to homeschooljournal.net. You can find me at http://freedomfiles.homeschooljournal.net.

Busy Weekend

We had our church up for a skating party on Saturday. I got soooo much done on Friday and Saturday. I wonder why I struggle to do that on a regular basis for my family? They are definitely worth it as much as guests!

The weather is decidedly warmer, quite nice. We have had several sunny days in a row, and I'm beginning to think spring really is coming. February is deceitfully NOT the shortest month.

We're having a yummy roast beef dinner tonight. My kids gobble it up, and it's fun seeing everyone enjoying their food so much.

Nothing big happening. Just every day life.

Average Happenings

Nothing much to report from here. I did have a session with the counsellor from Family Enrichment. The conclusion was we didn't solve anything, and there isn't really anything to be solved. But she did just make me feel less crazy about how I'm feeling.

Today I go for the ever fun gestational diabetic screening. Fun fun. I exchanged airmiles for a $50 gift card for Chapters. It came in the mail yesterday, so Cole is pretty excited to go spend that today. Me too!

Brett is at Greg's parents for a couple of days. I'm hoping to use this time to finish sorting the toys and books in the basement. Luke likes going on the van with Greg, so I'll likely leave him with Greg this afternoon after my bloodwork, and get some stuff done!

That's all my uninteresting news for now.

What I Did

I did go to town. But darn I should have made my mind up earlier. With the few errands and then Walmart and then Sobeys...it was pretty messy on the drive home.

I made Greg a nice steak and baked potato dinner, then we had snow cream! I was also very surprised to find my house cleaned (it wasn't bad when I left, but needed tidying) and a box of a dozen beautiful white roses left for me. Greg had come home when I left for town - Wednesday is actually the only day he could probably get away with this. So even though I said I didn't care, I did enjoy them, and they sure a pretty!

Greg is currently blowing the snow, and the boys are joining him while Ellie naps. Which means a really nice quiet break for me. Naturally this involves a chocolate moment. :)

What To Do

We have a heavy snowfall warning for the next couple of days. I'm not sure what I want the most. To get out of the house with the kids while I can, or stay safely inside in my jammies. I do need a few groceries, so I likely should go, but it seems like so much work. I likely will go.

We're hoping that the snow means a day off for Greg. If not, I'll be thinking with concern (not worrying!) about him the whole day.

Will likely give a better post later today.

P.S. Happy Valentines Day. I'm not in a mood to go crazy for Valentines Day. If Greg gets me nothing today, I really don't care. This has got to be a first. Don't worry. I still like him! I guess things have been so good lately that every day is Valentines for us. Maybe that's the key to a happy marriage?!

Will It Never End?

Are there many other 30-yr-old women who have been around this mountain this many times? I am soooo emotionally and mentally tired of my father's actions. After not getting much sleep Sat. night, or this past week for that matter, I called my dad yesterday morning. I had to tell him how I feel. He appreciated me telling him. But I don't think it will make a difference. He had a bit of an edge to his voice that told me he has made his choice. So I'm trying not to freak out over what this could mean for me. She's young enough to have babies - I don't think I can handle having a half-sibling younger than my own children! And like I said before, Dawn and Carol, both nearly 30 yrs older than me, struggled with intense jealousy towards me. So how will someone my age handle me? I told him I don't think he's using wisdom. I told him I feel really ackward and hurt. I told him that when he initially asked me if he could bring Kelly to meet me, I thought what he was proposing had to do with her wanting to homeschool, and it was just a casual once-in-a-while meeting between him and her. That's why I said yes she could come. But yesterday I told him no. And I told him to be careful. He said he would be, but I just feel that he's already made his choice, and he's going to pursue this relationship.

I came into church yesterday, and things there are difficult for me right now too. We have to have a talk with our pastors, and in the middle of everything I just feel overwhelmed. I just lost it. I have cried so much in the past few days - my eyes feel dried out and scratchy. But I feel like there's more to come. I had an appointment with my counsellor from Family Enrichment scheduled for today, but she had to call in sick, so that won't happen for another week. I'm disappointed. I really needed to talk with her.

So today I'm tired. Tomorrow some homeschoolers will be coming for a Valentine's Day party. That will be a nice distraction. Today I'll work some more on the basement, toys, books, etc. Lots to do, but so little energy. God, I need help.

Just When I Had Myself Convinced

I've been working all week, trying to tell myself that I overreacted to Dad's announcement about Kelly (the new woman). Maybe I read way to much into it. Arguing back and forth. So tonight he calls me. Not unusual. We usually say a quick hello at least once a day. But tonight we're talking about how our day was. I went first. Then asked him how he was. Great! He went for a drive down to Brown's Flats and vicinity - with Kelly and Hannah (her daughter). yay. happy for you. Is now a bad time to start drinking?

I tried to post earlier today, but was trying to figure out how to link to an earlier post. Couldn't figure it out, how to link. Anyway, I think it was Sept.'02. I posted about how I felt about Dad and Dawn, Dawn in particular. It wasn't that I was totally unwilling to accept her. I just knew it wouldn't work. And then we'd be where we are at now. And unfortunately, I was right.

Ok, if not drinking, then how about a few weeks away in some place warm?